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September 29th, 2011

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05:25 am - But I don't care, I'll always be here
Maybe I'm not 'fiercely OT5' in the sense that I'm okay with having Homin and JYJ. But the thing is, I'm still waiting for the day that they return. I know, deep down in my heart, like any logical person, that the reunion won't be next year or the year after. It might take 10 years, 20 years, but still I will wait. Because I trust my boys. Maybe this period of waiting has no limit but it doesn't mean that it's a period of time that will be wasted. While I'm waiting here, supporting the boys in their individual activities, in their activities as Homin and JYJ, I'm moulding for myself a patient heart and a sense of calm and belief that things will always turn out okay. Like the storm before the rainbow, the pressure carbon has to go through to become a diamond, just tiding through this period will allow me to become a better person. Things might not turn out the way I want them to, but hey, that's life. If I can take away from this situation a lesson, no matter how tiny and seemingly insignificant, I believe that the boys will be proud of me and happy that they made a difference in someone's life. This period of separation, they're each learning things and becoming better people for it. They might not be as happy as they were before but I think they've each grown to accept the situation and deal with it as best as they can. They're taking life lessons away from this and I think, they would be prouder than hell if we, as a fandom and as individuals can learn something from this as well. They've always wanted to impact our lives positively, shouldn't we give them that at least? They're each becoming stronger than ever, breaking their old records and rewriting history. They may be apart for now but no one can deny the gods their rightful place - at the very top. Of course, I still want my DBSK back together as five, taking over the world. But even if it never happens, that's okay. I'll still be waiting, be it 30 years or an entire lifetime. Each moment here has taught me more than I can even begin to describe. They've impacted my life so much, I can only hope it's in the way they wished to.

I guess what I'm really trying to say here is: I love the boys for being who they are, no matter what; that they've taught me things I wouldn't otherwise learn from anyone else; they will always be the very best in my heart because they deserve that and more.

Current Mood: at peace
Current Music: Still in Love - Kim Jaejoong

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Date:October 12th, 2011 10:25 am (UTC)
hi danicaaaa! how are you? haha i don't think you'd see this anyway. :)
-gwenn (if you still remember me haha)

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